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The Past Is Myself (Plain Foxed Edition)
Christabel Bielenberg, The Past Is Myself, Plain Foxed Edition
  • ISBN: 9781910898437
  • Pages: 384
  • Dimensions: 170 x 110mm
  • Publication date: 1 June 2020
  • Producer: Smith Settle
  • Genre: Memoir
  • Binding: Cloth hardback
  • Trimmings: Silk ribbon, head- & tailband; gold blocking to spine
  • NB: Unlimited Plain Foxed Edition
  • Preface: Amanda Theunissen
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The Past Is Myself (Plain Foxed Edition)

Christabel Bielenberg

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Christabel Bielenberg, a beautiful woman from an influential Anglo-Irish family, spent much of the Second World War with her children in a small village in the Black Forest. The Past Is Myself is her unique and fascinating account of wartime life in this ‘other Germany’ and of her own nail-biting encounter with the Nazi regime.

Christabel and Peter Bielenberg, a young lawyer from a liberal Hamburg background, met there while she was studying singing and married in 1934, not long after Hitler’s rise to power. In 1939, the couple moved from Hamburg to Berlin, but when Allied bombing made the city too dangerous, Christabel fled to the country with their three small sons.

Her picture of wartime life in the remote German countryside still comes as a surprise. In the cities food supplies dried up, friends betrayed friends and speaking out was always dangerous. But in the village of Rohrbach there was little sympathy for the Nazi party, nobody starved, people looked after one another, and Christabel and her family were warmly accepted into village life.

In 1944 Peter’s close friend Adam von Trott was hanged for his part in the failed July plot to assassinate Hitler. Peter, who had been working in Poland and returned just too late to take part, was arrested, interrogated and thrown into Ravensbruck concentration camp. In an act of extraordinary daring, Christabel demanded an interview with the Gestapo and, wearing her best fur coat and her gayest smile, managed to obtain his release.

Christabel herself said that she wrote The Past Is Myself out of a sense of duty – to let the world know that there had been another Germany and that being a German was not the same as being a Nazi. As well as telling a moving and romantic personal story, it’s a book that casts an unexpected light on the wartime behaviour of many ordinary Germans and on life under the Third Reich.

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  1. J. Petterson says:

    I recently received my copy of The Past Is Myself and I must say it is even more lovely a thing than I’d anticipated. Reading it, with its fine paper and its perfect size, slows me down in the very best way. Smith Settle have done a magnificent job in its production, and the choice of Bielenberg’s memoir is really inspired as it requires quiet contemplation and a slow pace to take in the import of the years the author so sensitively describes. You have brought a slice of slowness (a very good thing) into my life in the form of this beautiful edition.

  2. Jane Burrell says:

    I feel somewhat diffident about submitting a ‘review’, but this book makes it well-nigh impossible not to write a few words. The author opened a window onto her world, and I was entranced. The book covers her life as a young wife and mother in Germany at a time when racial restrictions were tightening, and the ill-effects of war were increasingly apparent. Her account is valuable because she was an eye-witness, and yet an outsider – able to describe the chipping away of human rights in a way that history books and academics haven’t managed to do. She lived amongst Germans who weren’t the ogres of popular myth, but she was also close to people who suffered dreadfully from the Nazi regime. I knew far more about the latter, than the former – which is why this book was such an eye-opener. I could barely put it down.

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