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Katrin FitzHerbert, True to Both My Selves | From the Slightly Foxed bookshelves

True to Both My Selves | From the Slightly Foxed bookshelves

Introducing the latest addition to the Slightly Foxed Editions list, No. 62:


Katrin FitzHerbert


By the time she was 14 Katrin FitzHerbert had lived in nearly thirty different places and attended fourteen schools – an unusual childhood, and the more so because it gave her two separate identities, one formed in the Germany of the Third Reich, the other in England after the Second World War.

In True to Both My Selves, winner of the 1998 J. R. Ackerley Prize for autobiography, Katrin FitzHerbert tells the gripping story of her family, beginning with the marriage of her German expatriate grandfather and English grandmother, in London in 1905. Their fate was decided by an ugly and little-known chapter in British history, the ill-treatment of the quiet, law-abiding German minority in Britain during the First World War. Expelled by the British Government in 1919 and with their 8-year-old daughter Elfreda in tow, the couple finally and thankfully left to make a new life in a small German town near Berlin.

By 1931 Elfreda had fallen in love and married the German man who in 1936 would become the author’s father, a committed member of the Nazi Party employed in the Hitler Youth administration, whom Katrin idolized. In True to Both My Selves she gives a fascinating inside account of what it was like to grow up in a Fascist state, retracing the emotions of her 5- and 6-year-old self as she becomes an enthusiastic member of the Kindergruppe and writes letters to Hitler on his birthday. She conveys vividly the dangerous seductions of Fascism and of a charismatic leader – the sense of duty, of obedience, of self-sacrifice to a greater cause, all of which Katrin saw embodied in her adored father. With great courage and honesty she describes how, when she returned to England with her mother after the war and assumed a new name and a new identity, she struggled to face her Nazi past and to make the final choice ‘between England and Papa’. True to Both My Selves is an unforgettable read.

True to Both My Selves is published on 1 March, but we’re pleased to report that it’s available to order now, with copies ready for dispatch later this month. And we look forward to bringing news of the forthcoming spring issue of Slightly Foxed magazine next week.

With best wishes, as ever, from the SF office staff
Hattie, Jess & Jemima

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‘Remarkable, truthful and absorbing.’ Country Life

‘It is, I think, an important book, filling a historical gap which has long been there. A very brave book, profoundly moving, it should be read by all generations.’ Mary Wesley

‘A riveting account of growing up Nazi in the Second World War and coping with defeat, disillusion and dual nationality.’ Guardian

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